i cant help but wonder what all of this pain and suffering is for. All of this treatment to fix me like a broken machine and no ones got the parts. I’m running on empty and for what? Cost my parents debt, cause my friends trouble, just for more and more disappointment? One more trial that all goes to shit? I won’t be remembered once I’m gone, hell nobody even remembers me while I’m still alive. I am a no one. I am barely a blip on the radar, one out of millions of other people, people who are serving a purpose and helping the world while I just mope in it, drown in it. I am no one. I am nothing. I am worse than nothing.